Obviously, I've been a no-show for ages. Pardon me for that. Apparently,both my mind and typing fingers got numb.
Anyway, I just got this sudden itch to burst this damn lazy bubble that I've been stuck in. Starting from updating myself of what's going on with my life nowadays. Oh yes, my head must be constantly updated. Rustyhead, anyone?
On the front line, I've got all my travel documents sorted out. Thank God for that. So, with that all set, I'm just hanging around to wait for my departure to the States. In weeks time. Great.
You see, I'm just not ready for it. Leaving Malaysia, my family, my friends and my dog. Because I don't think I'll be back for years. 3 if you want to be specific. Yeah, you can say that travelling is cheap nowadays and I can opt to come back whenever I please. Trust me, it won't be. Mainly because I don't have much greens to boot. :(
Once I'm gone, I'll be leaving so much more than the people I love. That, I can handle after a few weeks of homesickness. But, that aspect is the least of my concern. What's breaking my heart is that I'll miss all the precious memories and priceless moments. Those of my loved ones without me in them. And no way, I can share those moments with them in the future because it will always be: "Hey, remember that time when you're abroad?" Shucks, I'd say.
Anyway, I just hope that all the things that I'll be missing are worth it. Because if they're not, God only knows who I'll shoot the daggers at. Angst aside, I'm feeling quite optimistic that this coming journey will be something that'll change my life forever. Heck, I even got constant dreams about them. More importantly, it'll be the fuel that could aid me in my escapade from all the hum drum in my life right now. *Sigh.
Anyway. There's a pretty long journey ahead of me. Here's to my feet. You guys better don't fail me now.
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