World War 3 (My Household Version)

Jalan Bahagia, Happy Garden. Yup, that's where I live. My quirky address does come with it's fair share of inside jokes (Rumah Bahagia, anyone?) and sarcastic remarks. Heck, I even think that it's perfectly ironic considering my state of household nowadays. Anyway.

If you think that my household is the quintessential perfect family, think again. Because it's not. Partly because there are numerous landmines hidden around the perimeter. Just waiting to get erupted. Sometimes, we can guess where the sensitive regions are, but we just can't avoid them, it seems. For the sake of some adrenalin rush, perhaps?

Today's explosion comes with its own drama. Once again, everything just blew up without warning. And the culprit? Only the perfectly harmless remote control. I dub it as the "pirate's loot" because apparently once one of us get a hold on it, it will take both courage and a wicked mind to take it back from him/her. Seriously, I'm not kidding. Try to make a grab of it, then all hell will break loose. Sigh. The drama nowadays.

Speaking about the perfect family, is there really one out there? And what really characterize a flawless household? One without major fights, perhaps? But, once I start to ponder on the inevitable family clash that many of us have to deal with, I can't help but to notice that without all the fist fight and verbal tussle, life will be painfully dull. Don't you think?

I also read from somewhere that we tend to fight more with our loved ones for a reason. Because we know they love us and it's easier to show our feelings towards them without apprehension. Because we know once all the fighting demons are gone, love will take over and bring us closer.

Too bad the realization can't stop us from making the same mistake all over again. Because let's face it. Sometimes arguing instead of agreeing is so much more fun. And that is what makes living with our family members both heaven and hell on earth.

To my family. I still love you.

I Certainly Got What I Deserve.

I blamed a good friend of mine for the state of my life right now. Before you start chastising her for ruining my life, I should perhaps clarify that she'd inspired me to achieve my dream. Indirectly, of course. 

You see, I have always dreamed of going to the States. And for a long time, that dream had always stayed as one. Never in a million years I would imagine that one day, I'll have the chance to step my foot on the Land of Opportunity. Well, not before I got my big paycheck anyway. 

So, you can't blame me for getting excited when I watched *Sam gritting her teeth and pushing all odds to materialize her vision of continuing her tertiary studies in America. "If I can do it, then so can you." Her words of wisdom, I presume. Unfortunately, my parents begged to differ. It seems that there were tons of factor that did not work in favor for me to follow *Sam. Still perceiving me as their vulnerable, little girl would be the number one issue. I mean, come one! Are they failing to notice me as a full-grown woman? What if I'm still not filling up my brassiere? At least, I own one.

Anyway, I'm crushed.  While I was still stuck in the pit of my misery, I came to a conclusion that life is certainly not like a movie.  My life, that is. If it is, I'll have the guts to do my own thing and prove my parents wrong. I'll sealed my world from others' doubts and just listen to my instinct. In a movie, I'll make it to the States and have the last laugh. So, no big dreams for me because apparently I'm too chicken to make them come true.

In the end, I waved goodbye to *Sam and watched her fly. I shed a few tears and soldiered on for a new day, a new week. Just waiting for something exciting to happen to me, when *BAM! I got one!  What do you think it was? Only to score the exclusive and highly sought after PSD scholarship! When I said that I thought I would not get it, I'm seriously not kidding.  For Boo's sake, I totally botched the interview! At least I thought so. I mean making an impression as a handicapped person to the interviewers can't be a good thing right? Note to self, wearing glasses does not count as one.

And here's another sweet twist in my life. When getting a full scholarship is not enough, I got to further my studies in, get this, America! For a second, I thought my life couldn't get any better. For a second, all right. Turned out my sweet dream of pursuing the great education in the States is not free from it's own set of turbulence. Free advice? Never take college life as easy. Because it's not.

And so, there you have it. My dream of going to the States is on the verge of becoming true. In a month, I'll  change my status of current location from Ipoh, Malaysia to New Jersey, America.Call it karma, but I certainly got what I deserve. I guess the gods are really listening.

Cheers everyone! 

I'm Here, World.

A fresh start, that's what one should get when his life seems to be in a rut. 

The question is, do we have the balls to do it? Not many, mind you. 

Take me for example. I'm just weeks away to hit the big 20, and my life already seems like a mindless chore. For someone who's about to be a full-fledged adult, shouldn't life be a little more interesting? Where's the wild partying, fun drugs and exotic travelling? Where's the great, life-changing education experience? And, where the hell is my passionate, spine-tingling, hormone-induced romance? Yes, my track record with the fellow XY Homo sapiens is not that impressive, but shouldn't I get another shot? Anyway, I'm digressing on that. 

So, my life seems to be a bit on the dull side, and am I doing anything to change it for the better? Honestly, not much. Why? I don't know. But, I suspect it has to do with my long-held belief that my life is going to change by itself, through some weird karma mechanisms. In another word, I don't have the courage to change my life the way I wanted. Oh well.

There you have it. A first glance on my dull, but happy life. Though I'm not taking any drastic steps to make it more interesting, I sense something in the horizon that could do it instead. I sense something, alright. 

Ciao for now, everyone.