At times, all of us have to confront our inner demons. And trust me, when that happens, it ain't gonna be pretty. Today, I did that. And this time, it was particularly tough for me because I am fending off a thought that I desperately want to forget about. And I think this goes to everyone out there.
I have to confront the thought of losing someone I loved.
Trust me, being so far away from my family and friends and be unwillingly stuck with this unkind thought really do make you feel sick to the core. You may ask me then, why the hell was I thinking about it in the first place?
Well, I wish I could have a little more control on my mind and it's top secret operations within my head. But, yeah sadly, I just do not have the veto power to do that. It all started when a friend of mine told me that he had just lost his uncle. Cause of his demise? Exactly the one that my ... has right now. So, it really did hit a raw nerve. Try as I not to, I automatically imagine the same thing happening to ... And I honestly wish that I did not thought about it in the first place. Because by putting that thought in my head, I am this close of putting it out in the reality. And God forbids, if it really does happen.
Sometimes, it is so much better to not think about such upsetting things. Everyone said Death is inevitable and all of us are bound to leave the world at some point of our lives. But, to say it out loud is one thing, to watch it happen to your loved ones is totally another thing. If I could have the power to do anything, I want to make my loved ones to live as long as they could. The question is how long is long enough for us? How long does your loved ones have to stay to make you feel satisfied? We would not know the answer because this kind of stuff is really not up to our allies. We wish it could, but Life's ain't fair. It's been said so many times, but we would only realize that if we are stuck in circumstances that forces us to ponder on it.
What can we do then? Well, I would start to give my ... a call and tell him to take good care of his health, try to be strong and wait for me to come back home. Yes, I'll start to give all my loved ones one more call to let them know that Life's too precious, too darn short to be wasted away. Tell them that their health means so much more to the people around them.
I am still trying to extract this unthinkable thought out from my head. But, I have to admit that by it occupying my mind in these short minutes, it really does gave me something to ponder on. And I really hope that everyone is in their best health right now.
Stay safe. Stay healthy. Stay strong. God bless us all.
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